So demanding so devouring
They took everything and gave nothing back.
Just a hell of a lot of crap to carry
I opened everything and closed everything
I said everything but still nothing
I have done everything over and over again
So many failures so many falls
Never learned. No tools, no knowledge, no patience.
It's so pointless and insignificant so why bother
It's just me and my head again
I keep running in circles
Chasing after nothing
A pursuit without meaning
No goal, no direction
I just keep running
So many thoughts and so many feelings.
A swarm of angry bees buzzing inside me
So restless and shaky, my whole body is vibrating
It's growing, accelerating, my brain is overheating
I can't keep up with my own feelings
My heart is racing and my eyes are bleeding
Everything moves at the speed of light
A hurricane inside me is tearing me apart.
My mind is spinning out of control
This is unbearable and I need to rest
I guess I get to sleep when I'm dead
So god please help me to end this
Ständig beredskap skräckslagen förvirrad. Det skakar i varje muskel varje nerv En ständig kombination av rädsla och ångest. Ingen sömn inge...
