Inside my mind

What am I supposed to be

How am I supposed to feel

Am I a friend or just a project

I don't understand what this is supposed to be

I feel something I don't want to feel

I'm afraid my mind is playing tricks on me

I don't know if it's true or just a fantasy

So what am I supposed to tell you

I can't read between the lines I don't know how

Something inside just doesn't feel right

So I close the door and leave it behind

Another trap inside my mind

Time!!

Time is not on my side

I can't change the past

There is no right or wrong

No magic savior or god

I lost my faith all hope is gone

I am tired and alone broken by life

I see sorrow everywhere broken people broken homes

A world so cold so threatening and brutal

What happened to humanity what went so wrong

We live in a world where no one belongs

And time is not on our side

Back home!!

I want to find a way back home

To the safe place that feels like home

A place where no one can hurt me.

A place where I am free to live and let go

I want to open my eyes and be able to breathe

To feel joy and be able to smile

To see a future and a way forward in life

I just wish someone would tell me that this nightmare is over

This is my life and I never really wanted it

And I know that I will never find my way back home

The one

Another step in the wrong direction

Counting down the inevitable

Here today and I pray for a tomorrow

I hope you get to see the sun rise just one more time

You are my friend my only comfort

I know you are old and tired you were the one who had a life

I know it's time to say goodbye

But my love for you will never die

Ghost

How do you enjoy the silence when the noises are too loud

How do you feel joy when sorrow is all you know

How can you feel love when hate is all you've seen

How can you move forward when you're stuck in the past

The circle is closed and I'm just a ghost 

I can't find my way out !

They say when you hit rock bottom

Things can only get better

But I'm starting to wonder if there's even a bottom

I keep falling further and further

It feels like a bottomless pit

I'm stuck in this endless loop and I can't find my way out

I'm lost in here in my own mind!

Another day !

I don't know So don't ask

I'm so tired physically and mentally exhausted

This back and forth is tearing me apart

I hear the words and they all sound the same

The voices in my head just won't go away

So don't ask how I feel today

But tomorrow might be a better day

So just stay away for another day

Too broken to be fixed!!

Sometimes reality is too real

I know you mean well

I know what you're trying to do

But you're not helping

If you could only see inside me

My heart is still beating and I'm breathing

But I'm dead inside so broken and scared

You can't fix me or heal me

Not even your god can save me from what I've become

And reality is I'm too broken to be fixed