I'm dirty

Don't touch me!

Don't get too close stay the hell away from me

I feel disgusting, dirty and filthy!

The stench, the smells of bodily fluids never go away!

I cut deeper I scrub I wash I bleed

 I'm not getting clean! I'm disgusting I'm dirty

I'm a disgrace a black sheep a walking disease

I'm not even comfortable in my own skin

So please don't touch me!

The wounds are wide open

It's wide open

It's back inside me

the abyss is opening up

I am falling deeper into the rabbit hole

The wolves are getting closer

I can hear their breath! I smell death

I can see their blood red eyes

I'm paralyzed I can't run I'm out of breath

I can't scream I can't even move

I'm bleeding out I'm dying

I fall deeper and deeper into depression

And the wounds are wide open