No human deserves this
I see no solution to this hell
I have no life! so stressed out
Panic in my head and the voices keep telling me
There is no way out!! This life is not worth living
I just wish all of them would go away
Silence would be golden but the noise inside my head is getting louder by the minute
And they all sound the same! a bad song inside my head
Am I going crazy or am I just insane?
I see no solution to this mental hell
But the voices in my head won't go away
It doesn't matter how hard you try
Because in the end we all fall down
The fight for life continues until the end of time
Chasing dreams and better times
Always searching for the next big thing
But there is no gold at the end of the rainbow
No afterlife, no heaven, no hell
So it doesn't matter how hard you fight
Because in the end, nothing really matters anymore
Restless!
I feel like a junkie on speed
My head won't stop overthinking everything
Trying to escape myself!
I run around in circles like a freak on a leash
Speed demons in my head
Bloody knuckles broken bones
Tear filled eyes and silent screams
So damn restless and all fucked up again
You can hate me
You can beat me exploit me
Use me as a poor excuse
Do what you want burn me crush me
So take your best shot and just destroy me
Nothing is given
It's always the hard way
You bag and pray for something more
But life is not an easy task
We are all born to die
There is no life without death
So just make the best of it
There is no such thing as heaven or hell
There is only here and now
When I think it's over It hits me harder
The more I struggle, the more everything falls apart.
The further I go the harder I fall.
I'm trying to get over my past
FORGIVE and FORGET IS SO EASY TO SAY
It never ends there is no beginning no end
This is me my Life my suffering
Why? I can't stop
Decomposition rotting
The stench of obsessive thoughts
Emotions run wild anger anxiety rises
Pain within fear from above
Head above the surface no air no breathing
I want it out! why can't i stop it
I need to breathe I'm suffocating!
Thoughts of destruction
A heart so black and charred
A mind set for disaster
So close to the edge I'm on my way
Endless thoughts the fire inside is burning me
So high on adrenaline I just want to fly
Thoughts of destruction are destroying my mind
Project dead man!
Why do I start things?
Why am I even trying?
Nothing is ever good enough for me
I see all the cracks the damage the scratches
It's like a disease that spreads
The seeds in my head are growing
I'm losing control and I can't stop
I just want to break it destroy it make it all go away
Why am I still here?
Why do I keep torturing myself
I can't find joy in sadness
Dangerous thoughts run through me
All those words mean nothing to me
It's sad but true but this is my reality
My life is lost in a sea of sadness
So why am I still here alive and breathing
I have seen my future in my past
It is a frightening picture of reality
And everything I see is everything I left behind
I did not choose this life or to live this way
But circumstances and bad choices led me here
Now I walk a lonely road scared and lost and completely alone
I can't blame anyone else I'm the demon in myself
I'm lost here in my head all alone with the memories of all things to come
Who is that staring at me Blood red eyes a soulless smile so familiar!! So twisted and tormented I see the fear, the scars, the smell of dec...
