Afraid !

Always looking for the easy way out

I don't want to live I don't want to die

So afraid to live this so-called life

So afraid to lose this fight inside my own mind

Afraid to live afraid to die

I can't go out I can't stay inside

There's really nowhere to run and hide

It's just me and my own mind

Not meant to be!

I guess it's not meant to be

No me, no you

We're two ghosts sharing the same space

Lost in time lost in our own minds

Alone but never alone you're there behind the door

So close but still miles away I can't reach you

I don't know how to go on

I don't know what to say or do

I can't save you I can't save myself

We're lost here in a broken home

Anxiety and fear are all we know

I guess this life was never meant to be

Run!!

All my instincts tell me to run

To hide, to disappear, To escape from it all

I hate feeling like this! the constant fear, the anxiety

The fear of losing something I don't even have

It's been 15 years trapped in this nightmare

Isolation, self-destruction, there's really nothing left inside me

I lost my faith and now everything else is gone

I don't want to fight!!

I don't want to talk about it anymore

I'm so tired of excuses and broken promises

All I hear are empty words and lies

I'm too tired to cry and I don't want to fight tonight

So I promise myself never again

And I really don't want to talk about anything anymore

Something is wrong!

No appetite

Can't eat can't sleep

Pain is all I feel every nerve aches

Something is very wrong inside me

It hurts the pain is unbearable

It takes all the strength I have left

I'm weak beaten and broken

I need relief I need it more than ever

But I can't eat I can't sleep

My appetite is dead and so am I

Despair

I'm not strong-headed

I'm not even present

I have no faith no will

I lost myself in a sea of ​​madness

And all I see is fear and sorrow

And I'm drowning in my own despair