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onsdag 5 augusti 2020

I just want to disappear!


My brain is like a running train. On the way to disaster. There is no emergency brake, no stop. I need to break away get away from it all.I need everything to end. God make this nightmare go away. I can no longer cope I can no longer bear. I just want to disappear!

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Jag behöver kaffe!


Vaknar upp med sviterna från gårdagen! 

Skakande stapplande tar jag mig upp. 

Mitt huvudet dunkar det värker i hela kroppen. 

Ingen balans ingen koordination . 

Hjärtat slår dubbla slag. Tung andning suddig syn. 

Bristande ork och ingen energi.  

På ben som knappt bär tar jag dagens första steg. 

Så svag  så uppgiven Jag behöver kaffe! 
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