All that I Am not!

I do not care anymore!

I want to be emotionally heartless!

A selfish and destructive human being

Live life without remorse paint the whole world black

Destroy everything in my path lie and deceive

Take advantage of my darkest side!

And use it In every way to get what I want

I'm coming for you! You will feel my pain

My hatred will tear your soul to pieces

I will make you feel all my suffering

Force you to feel everything you have done to ne

I want to become all that I Am not! I want to be you!

I just do not give a fuck anymore I'm not you! 

What am I missing?

 

To be invisible!

The feeling of abandonment. 

The creeping discomfort

The feeling of hopelessness

 which constantly haunts me.

A feeling that nothing is right! 

That something is terribly wrong

Something is missing but what?

I need to know To progress 

Become whole again what am I missing?

What is lurking in the dark

Hiding in the shadows

And prevents me from living

I need to know WHAT it is !!