So-called life

It feels like a lifetime ago

What I learned as a child

Which became a pattern to survive

To crawl into the closet and disappear

Over the years I continued to lock myself away

I isolated myself, left everything and everyone behind

It was the only way I knew to survive, this so-called life

A decade inside

No social interaction

I have been isolated for over a decade

Surrounded by these four walls

I hid my head under a rock and disappeared

I shut out the world and everything in it

I left everything behind, forgot how to live

I drowned in my own sorrow, suffocated by my own fear

I locked the door and threw away the key

I turned off the light and faded away

A decade inside this apartment from hell!!

I don't want to live here anymore