No more tears

I want my heart to stop beating,

I don't want to feel like this!

I don't want to feel emotions. I don't want to think!

I don't want memories no past!

I just want to be empty and cold

I want to be free from the pain, the suffering

Free from everything! No more tears no more anxiety!

I just want to be free from me!!

So deep inside

Practice what you preach

Or just shut up

Give me a chance to explain it

I know You won't understand it and you can't change it

It's just the way it's always been

So don't preach about repeating the same thing

It doesn't help and won't change anything

I've already been through it all

self-medication, pills and drugs

Psychologists, doctors and healers

And my favorite choice of them all alcohol

So deep inside i know that repeating isn't healing!!