I can't let anyone get close to me

Screaming with fear!

Have you ever woken up?

So terrified paralyzed with fear

While someone is taking advantage of you

Using you like a broken doll

Up up and down in and out

Rapes my mind raps my soul

Stole my innocence my purity

I'm dirty I'm disgusting I'm worthless

The scent refuses to go away I can't scrub it off

It's still there crawling in my head

The shame, the hate, the anger So why do I still blame myself

I deserve so much more than this

But so many parts of me are broken so damaged

I can't be fixed, I'll never be whole again

I can't let anyone get close to me! I can't let anyone in

Close my eyes and fade away

The wounds are wide open

I'm beaten and broken

So tired I can barely stand

I am physically drained, mentally exhausted

I can't trust my own feelings

I'm in really bad shape

It's hard to keep my head above the surface

I'm so tired so sick of everything

I just want to close my eyes and fade away

And Sleep this fucking life away