I'm still here!

I still hear their words

All of their lies, all of their empty promises

Fake dreams, fake hopes, fake friends

They never cared about anyone but themselves

They stole my trust left me bleeding

I could have died on that fateful night

Alone in the dark with a bottle as my only friend

It took me ten years to get out of that hell

I did it all by myself, I left the bottle and everything else

I don't know if it was worth it because I'm still here

I can't find a way out

I never processed anything

I just swallowed it all and shut down

I stepped straight into the dark safety of a closet

I buried it all so deep inside me

I continued to hold onto things that I couldn't process

I struggled with my own feelings and emotions

So confused so lost inside my own mind

So afraid to show fears, emotions anything at all

No one to talk to, nowhere to escape, no safe place

No one there to save me from this hell! this so-called home

I lost everything in a closet I hid everything so deep

And now I can't find a way out any more