I can't find a way out

I never processed anything

I just swallowed it all and shut down

I stepped straight into the dark safety of a closet

I buried it all so deep inside me

I continued to hold onto things that I couldn't process

I struggled with my own feelings and emotions

So confused so lost inside my own mind

So afraid to show fears, emotions anything at all

No one to talk to, nowhere to escape, no safe place

No one there to save me from this hell! this so-called home

I lost everything in a closet I hid everything so deep

And now I can't find a way out any more