I had no choice no options!

 

When the abuse started, the violence took over

I hid in the closet paralyzed and scared. I prayed for my life

Alone in the dark with a knife in my hand crying and terrified

The only way to survive was to lock myself in and protect myself

Then he appeared! The angry emotionally cold hateful personality

I Created the character of anxiety, fear anger and hatred

I had no choice no options. I had to create a monster to survive

God knows that hell is right here!

I live on cigarettes and coffee

I spit bile I push myself forward. I'm a wandering disaster.

Ready to burst! I'm a ticking bomb a minefield ready to fall apart.

I will dig deep to tear everything out. Every feeling every single wound.

 I do not care anymore. I can 't take it anymore! 

I'm not going to get down on my knees and pray

Your sick system where no one listens or understands. A care that fails! 

You are treated as rubbish thrown out, humiliated. no health insurance no protection at all

If you feel shit, you will be treated like shit! God knows that hell is right here and now.

Middle finger up!