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måndag 29 mars 2021

I'm not good I'm not okay !!


Yes, I'm okay!

Yes I feel good everything works as it should

No no anxiety today! Nothing has happened

Do not worry, I'm fine, I'm surviving.

No, I do not need anything today or tomorrow.

I need absolutely nothing at all! No help!

Stop nagging, just let me be


Read between the lines he is not okay and nothing is fine


No, I'm not okay!

No i dont feel good noting works as it should

just anxiety today! Nothing has changed

Be Worried! I'm in a panic I will not survive

Yes, I do need something both today and tomorrow.

I need everything I can not get! I need help !!

Stop nagging at me, just see me understand me

I'm not good I'm not okay !! 

Do the right thing for once !!


Fear of losing control!

Fear that the impulses will take over.

So afraid of aggravating everything.

A struggle to control everything that grows beneath the surface.

The anger, the frustration, the anxiety that just grows

The feelings all the words the thoughts I want it out.

I want to shatter their distorted view of reality.

Crush all the walls, tear down all the bridges.

Hit a nail in their coffin, bury everything.

Get them to redo and do the right thing for once 

RIght now!

What the hell !

Who is that staring at me Blood red eyes a soulless smile so familiar!! So twisted and tormented I see the fear, the scars, the smell of dec...

I am what i am!