life is fucked up and so am I
I can't bear it, I just want to disappear
I am so confused so broken and mentally exhausted
I just want to scream and let it all out
I can't carry the weight it's too heavy
It's tearing me apart, consuming me
I don't know whether to laugh or cry.
I don'I don't know whats in or out!
I guess it's just the way of life
An impossible situation
I can't handle it or deal with it
I don't know what to say or do
I'm lost and speechless
My heart is bleeding my soul is broken
I know too well that this is self-destructive
It's not a good place, not a safe space
It is a broken home and we are the broken ones
It's just you and me locked in this hell
I can't save you and I can't save myself
I can't control it! I can't be strong.
I just want to break down and cry!
Crawl into a corner and die
But I have to bite the bullet
Hold back the tears, stifle the screams
Build a fake smile. show strength.
But I'm not that strong!! I'm weaker than I've ever been
WHY! Am I the only one keeping him alive?
I can barely take care of myself
And I really can't do it all by myself
But I have no choice no options
It's a losing battle but I keep fighting
Who is that staring at me Blood red eyes a soulless smile so familiar!! So twisted and tormented I see the fear, the scars, the smell of dec...
