So deep inside

Practice what you preach

Or just shut up

Give me a chance to explain it

I know You won't understand it and you can't change it

It's just the way it's always been

So don't preach about repeating the same thing

It doesn't help and won't change anything

I've already been through it all

self-medication, pills and drugs

Psychologists, doctors and healers

And my favorite choice of them all alcohol

So deep inside i know that repeating isn't healing!!

It's just me!!

I can't reach, or touch it it won't stop

It continues to force me closer to the edge

I'm about to fall and can't stand up straight

I'm spinning out of control my brain is running wild

i Damned if I do and damned if I don't

So it doesn't even matter if I try or not

i'm still fucked!! And there is nothing that can change that

It's just me fighting with my own brain