The riot is me

Something in me has to stop

I have ants in my pants and a riot in my head

I can't be stil, l and get no rest

My heart is racing and my body is shaking

I keep spinning, I'm overheated and overthinking

Body and mind out of control! eror something is wrong

I try to lie down but my head keeps spinning

My body aches and I'm still shaking

There is no stopping and I can't help it

This is how it's always been!

I still remember

First memory

Lying on the floor in the fetal position feels like dying

Unbearable torment and pain I am screaming and crying

My body is burning everything is hurting

A million razor blades cutting through my bare skin

The pain is devastating my heart is breaking

A blood disease that dropped me to the floor

I prayed for my life and hoped to die

I was just a baby but I still remember

All the pain, the suffering and the total agony

And Sometimes I can even feel all that inside me

I'm a physical wreck

I just want to have a single day without stress

Just a minute an hour, a little peace of mind

I need time to process, adjust

I have to stop and catch my breath

I'm completely drained, there's nothing left

My energy has run its course there is no fuel left in me

I'm so torn apart, all out of breath and I'm a physical wreck