When everything falls apart!
I hear the words !! I see his blank stare, there is nothing left.
No light no joy. Just an empty soul so abandoned
Anxiety filled, terrified and emotionally cold.
A tormented and lost child abandoned and alone
He is trapped in a place where no light reaches the darkness has taken over
A scary and dark reality to face alone!!
Your wicked ways have no effect on me
Do not even try to drag me down to your level
Do not try to fuck me over, as you always do
I know your game I know what you're trying to do
You can hate me !! spread lies do what the hell you want
But do not drag my child into your sick mind game
You have already hurt and let him down so many times
So why the hell are you doing it again? I just want to know why !!
This time you crossed the line !!
For the very last time !! There is no second chance
You should not have opened your mouth
What you said will become your reality
It's sad but true but you know what's waiting for you
You know the truth, you know what's coming
You know his heart and home are right here with me
I hope you suffocate on your own words
Because you made your bed and now you have to sleep in it
You say you want to be a mother, be there for him
And still you say you will abandon him !!
Keep your hatred out of this and for ones think of whats best for him and do the right thing
Here it comes again !!
You know very well that it was you
You abandoned him betrayal him left him
You gave him false hopes of promises you never kept
You were never there for him you lied and lied
You broke his heart, betrayed his trust left him screaming in the dark
All his anger his anxiety all his outburst I had to clean up the mess you created
You made your choices out of hatred and anger
Can't you see that the only one you hurt was him
Take a look in the mirror and tell me what you see
You know damn well that it was you who abandoned him!!
So don't blame me for your actions and hatred against me
I hate this fucking shit !!
I can't do this anymore
I'm so fucking tired of every single one of them
I know why !! I know what triggers everything I know all too well !!
Do not try to explain to me what I already know
Do not twist and turn my words, do not ignore me
Hear me understand me, This is my life, not yours
I have made my peace and you are not a part of it
So Just get over it !!
I'm sick of this
Stop creating problems that do not exist
Do not try to make your problems mine
I'm not the one who's sick I'm just hurt
I just want peace and quiet. I do not need this
I do not need the drama that you continue to create
I have more than enough, so just stop
Because I'm sick and tired of dealing with this madness
You only create bigger problems and aggravate everything
So back off and stop doing this !!
I remember the day that started it all !!
I heard your voice I felt how the panic anxiety took over
You screamed you cried the words you repeated over and over again he has he has !!
What!!! Something in me broke I lost control !!
It flashed before my eyes !! I already knew before you got the words out
He has he has !! sexually exploited her he has !!!
That day, everything came back, every memory, every emotion
Anxiety fear hatred and anger all at once !!
That fucking phone call triggered it all
The monster was back and i lost control!
What the hell is wrong with you
What's wrong with your mind?
Are you completely insane
What part is missing inside your head?
You have no boundaries, no respect
You continue to invade my private space
No means no and I will not say it again!!
Head strong
Heart broken
Beaten and bruised
Reject me or accept me
Hate me or love me
It does not matter to me
I'm already dead inside!!
This isn't okay
I have said it once and twice
I have said it a million times
And you still do not understand
I'm not doing this Not now. or never
I'm done with this and it's not okay
I really do not need this anxiety again
I'm done and over it!!
As always!
It's not my decision to make
So why the hell are you asking me
You already know the answer
You know where I stand what I feel and think
So why the hell do you even ask that question
When you already know the answer !!
I know my truth
I do not have to prove anything to you
I'm still broken in every way
So why am I still ashamed and afraid to be me
Why it's so hard to let go and be free
Why do I still feel like a disease
Why did you have to destroy me like this?
You took away my innocence my childhood
You hurt me so badly you broke me in every way!!
Who is that staring at me Blood red eyes a soulless smile so familiar!! So twisted and tormented I see the fear, the scars, the smell of dec...
