This is not my Life!

I don't remember how it feels to breathe. To enjoy the silence the calm and just be. I no longer remember the laughter, the joy and the warmth. So dark so empty and cold. An icy silence no life no hope no future. This is not my Life!

I can't breathe I'm drowning!

From out of nowhere it strikes me!  

there is no help no protection

Nothing that can alleviate or hinder!

The panic and fear is takes over I am trapped in a web of anxiety!

The walls shrink they creep closer and closer. Shadows are chasing me follows me

I am trapped and isolated on the inside of myself.  And I can find my way out of here!

I sink further and deeper into the darkness. I can't breathe I'm drowning!