So quiet and empty

A room without life and movement.

So quiet and empty. I still do not understand what happened.

It is difficult to take in difficult to process.

So many thoughts and feelings they spread like wildfire.

I swing between anger and sadness, anxiety and panic.

The hardest part is not knowing Not understanding why

So many questions no answers. No explanation

Just the silence from an empty room.

Where life died out

Everyday is a new page!

Everyday is a new page!
No yesterday no tomorrow just here and now.
I'm depressed I have anxiety. I do not feel good.
I'm drained of energy. I'm lost and confused.
I'm weaker than anyone thinks. I'm tired and powerless.
I'm still fighting I'm not going to give up
I keep fighting! Day in and day out without rest without stopping.
I know where I have been and where I am heading.
The road has been long and crooked. A hard road to walk alone
So many unhealed wounds! A lifetime of anxiety and fear.
Repressed and hidden memories which still haunts me
It's time to break free! Time to heal my wounds