Is there a cure for my illness?

life on the dark side!

I've passed through too many doors Too many places

I have tried everything! Home sweet suicide, pills drugs.

The demon alcohol whatever I could find to relieve the pain

I have wandered in dark alleys in search of self-destruction.

Looked for trouble just to be physically abused. Beaten black and blue!

Constantly looking for something whatever I could find.

A life still so devastating and degrading. A life without living

Too many opportunities have passed me by

Can something stop this madness or stop my suffering?

Is there a cure for my illness?

A strange feeling of deja vu!

A strange feeling of deja vu!

Feels so familiar an inner conflict between reason and emotion.

A struggle between time and space. is it real it's, is it true I do not know

Am I here or where am I? Am I sitting here right now behind the screen and writing.

Or am I back where it all started Drunk behind a typewriter. 

With tears in my eyes drinking to forget. The same old memories that still haunt my dreams.

A feeling that time and space are intertwined. That i am stuck in a recurring nightmare

The  strange feeling that history is constantly repeating itself. 

A never ending story that constantly repeats. The same old shit just another day!