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onsdag 9 september 2020

That's life!


I'm lying on the floor !!

A broken puzzle shattered, crushed.

I see the pieces floating around changing shape.

I see dark silhouettes fragments of my life.

I see everything, experience everything over and over again.

This is no dream no fantasy no illusion!

A life a journey through hell and back.

Constantly chased constantly on the run.

Every instinct Every nerve at full stretch. Constant readiness!

Every sound, every movement triggers the survival instinct

The reptile brain takes over RUN RABBIT RUN!

A complicated puzzle to put back together.

That's life! Here with my only friend

Complex post-traumatic stress disorder

All hope is gone!


White Lies! broken rhymes

All I hear are empty words

Cold misleading and hurtful.

Words that minimize and offend me!

I do not need to hear more about me

I know all too well that I'm not okay !!

I can't take any more of this!!

I refuse to listen to all their lies

I have lost faith all hope is gone

I am stuck in a life of false words and false promises.

A life where words have lost their meaning.

I'm shutting down again!

RIght now!

What the hell !

Who is that staring at me Blood red eyes a soulless smile so familiar!! So twisted and tormented I see the fear, the scars, the smell of dec...

I am what i am!