I need everything !!

I need a ticket to nowhere !!

I need someone something a way out

I need fuel I need energy. I need a light in my darkness.

I need a shoulder to rest my head against.

Someone who can catch me when I fall.

I need a leading hand someone to guide me

Someone who can make me feel safe and loved again

I need security I need support I need a helping hand

I need everything !! I'm so lost so scared so vulnerable!

I hold my breath and pray!!

Razor blade in my throat!

Nails in my head, a thousand needles through my body.

Shaking, tingling a constant ache.

Knocked out paralyzed! Bleeding eyes open wounds!

Physically exhausted broken down 

Scared and weak down on my knees

I hold my breath and pray for the pain to goes away!!