I am

I'm a disaster

A minefield a ticking bomb.

A danger to myself.

Afraid of my own thoughts

Afraid of losing control.

I'm afraid I won't be able to resist it

I hit myself hurt myself

Anything to ease the pain

So deeply emotionally damaged.

I am a disaster a minefield a ticking time bomb.

Guide me through this!!

Take my hand!!

Guide me through these nightmares

My heart is bleeding and my head is spinning

I keep on fighting!!

But it is far from over

Tears are falling and it feels like drowning

I can hardly breathe and it feels like dying

I need your help and your shoulder

So take my hand and guide me through this