I keep fighting

I can't control it! I can't be strong.

I just want to break down and cry!

Crawl into a corner and die

But I have to bite the bullet

Hold back the tears, stifle the screams

Build a fake smile. show strength.

But I'm not that strong!! I'm weaker than I've ever been

WHY! Am I the only one keeping him alive?

I can barely take care of myself

And I really can't do it all by myself

But I have no choice no options

It's a losing battle but I keep fighting

No more tears

I want my heart to stop beating,

I don't want to feel like this!

I don't want to feel emotions. I don't want to think!

I don't want memories no past!

I just want to be empty and cold

I want to be free from the pain, the suffering

Free from everything! No more tears no more anxiety!

I just want to be free from me!!