My mind is broken

No one can hurt me!

As I hurt myself self-inflicted pain

Self-medication suffocation pills, alcohol

I've tried them all

I've been high I've been low

I've danced with the devil survived through hell

Lived through the nightmares all over again

I have faced my demons, looked them in the eye

I'm still here and I'm still alive

Half dead and half alive, is this truly a life worth living

To constantly suffer from the consequences of others

I am a victim of so many things and they keep chasing me

I'm not a survivor, I can barely breathe, I'm constantly suffocating

Forced to live through the abuse over and over again

My mind is broken my will to live is ruined

It never gets better! And nothing really works

A sad excuse

Empty tears bloodshot eyes

I can't get them out I can't hold them in

I have lost the ability to ventilate

I closed down, turned off all human feelings

It was the only way I knew how to get through the night

I painted a picture of a perfect world where no one could hurt me

But the only person I was hurting was myself

I sacrificed my feelings to survive I buried them so deep inside

So Afraid to let go of opening it up

Terrified, paralysed, afraid that it will be the end of me

I can't let go I'm scared, alone so cold and empty

It's just me, a sad excuse of a human being