Another wasted day!
Unnecessary stress and anxiety
I do not know whether to laugh or cry
Sitting staring at the fucking phone waiting
Tick tick tick time stands still anxiety increases
Every second every minute feels like hours
The heart beats faster the panic creeps closer
Just staring waiting for the call tick tick tick
A call from a doctor who never called
I'm so fucking tired of even trying to get help
I do not know? Just another wasted day !!
The downside of living with an overactive brain !!
Constant stress and anxiety so high and uncontrollable
It consumes all energy, it knocks out all bodily functions
It never shuts down, it increases in speed, it becomes unbearable
It causes anxiety and stress to become unmanageable
So high levels that I can not even explain how devastating it feels
That every second every minute every breath feels like the last
To constantly walk around with an inner chaos that never stops
You just want to crush the skull, tear it out and destroy it
It's like living with a swarm of killer bees inside you
This is destroying from the inside out !!
I am not! I've never been.
I will never be. So do not repeat do not bother
Do not ask idiotic questions over and over again. .
So do not ask if I'm okay, do not ask if I'm fine.
Because I'm stuck in a life. I do not want to live
Trapped in a system that constantly fails
A game without rules where the dice are rolled.
I'm just a replaceable piece. a man without value
But I am not have never been I will never be okay !!
Who is that staring at me Blood red eyes a soulless smile so familiar!! So twisted and tormented I see the fear, the scars, the smell of dec...
