I struggle in silence
Fighting to survive
So close!!
But still unreachable
I never reach the starting point
There is always something there
That keeps me from healing
I'm falling!! deeper down the rabbit hole
A terrifying place filled with anxiety and fear
The struggle within always wines!!
Heading for disaster.
My brain is like a runaway train.
No emergency brake no stop.
It's getting closer, seconds away
I'm ready to crash and burn again
Hitting myself burning myself.
Just to feel something else
There is no joy, no longing, just emptiness
I don't want to feel like this
I don't want to think
I don't want to live and I don't want to die.
I just don't know how to survive in this life
Who is that staring at me Blood red eyes a soulless smile so familiar!! So twisted and tormented I see the fear, the scars, the smell of dec...
