I tried to save myself!

I told myself right from the start!

That alone is strong

I created a character to survive

I played with the fire I played a game!

I adapted and blended in

Sacrificed my soul for others

I became a copy a clown!

The wild child that everyone saw!

But behind the mask the charades

I was alone and terrified

Screaming for help but no one saw me!

They just saw the freak I had become

I had become everything i didn't want to be!

I tried to save myself, get through everything

But i was alone and weaker than ever!

I was just a child!

I fell I crashed! lonely and invisible  

lost and alone in a world where no one saw or heard

I screamed for help But no one came to my rescue 

I broke down. lost will. Alcohol and addiction became my life

I was exploited, beaten battered! Stuck in a life I could not bear to live

Death on the inside I lived without living I was just a child!

My life was ruined before I even had time to start living