If I could close my eyes forever!

 

If I never breathe another breath

never see another day this would be a blessing

If I could close my eyes forever! Forgive and forget.

Instead of being forced to relive life over and over again

And everything I have survived over the years

I know you were mine before you died 

And you kept me alive, cleansed my wounds

I've been to hell and back so many times.

All the suffering of the world became mine

I have the devil's mark forever and I drank of the demon holy wine !!

You will always be the devil on my shoulder

And I know that there is no god in heaven!

No angels no savior  welcome to hell!

In the end, it's just me!

So afraid to let go

will I have the strength?

To be able to give the last I have left

the only broken piece that keeps me alive

Or will it take my life?

So afraid to face! my biggest fear.

My worst nightmare. My darkest secret

The madness lurking inside my twisted mind

If I lose control, I lose my life, my will to fight

In the end, it's just me and my suicidal dreams!

No control no life sad but true!