I try day in and day out!
I do everything I can try to do it right.
Change all my habits break all the patterns
But nothing works No sleep no routines.
The days just get longer I get no sleep no rest
Everything continues to fall apart around me
I crash and break Nothing works everything goes wrong.
I slowly fade away and disappear.
When reality hits so hard!
That you do not even have time to react.
When a single word triggers everything
All sleepless nights! All these wasted years.
Alone is strong I have never been weaker.
Her words still echo inside my head
They're spinning around, tearing up my thoughts
Where the hell were you decades ago.
All journeys through the gates of Hell.
I sacrificed everything to survive!
Left everything and everyone behind me.
I could just as easily have finished everything.
But I refuse to give up refuse to die!
I do not want to take my own life
Because of others' misjudgments about me
I am not a diagnosis I am a human
Who is that staring at me Blood red eyes a soulless smile so familiar!! So twisted and tormented I see the fear, the scars, the smell of dec...
