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tisdag 20 oktober 2020

Where you see the light, I only see darkness!!


 What you do not see is what you do not understand.

Blinded by your own feelings and experiences.

Your life your experiences. So do not say you understand.

You have not wandered around on the inside you have not been stuck in the dark.

You have not struggled with the fear anxiety.

The constant longing to just disappear leaves everything.

So do not say you understand! How it feels not to want to live.

Do not even try to understand something you will never understand.

Because where you see the light, I only see darkness.


I'm not even close to normal!


I'm not even close

So far away from feeling good

I see no change no opportunity

I fell too much can not sort

My feelings tear me apart

My mind explodes into an emotional chaos

I'm not even close to a normal life

I want to shut down disconnect my life

I dont want this I just want an end

But I'm not even close to normal!

RIght now!

What the hell !

Who is that staring at me Blood red eyes a soulless smile so familiar!! So twisted and tormented I see the fear, the scars, the smell of dec...

I am what i am!