It hurts to know that life will never be the same again!!

When the words disappear

When no one understands or sees

When the struggle to survive is all that is left.

Fear anxiety panic that only grows.

The screams that no one hears. The tears that no one sees.

I do not need more I do not have the strength anymore.

I just want to disappear. I just want to be free

I do not need more I need less

I need to cleanse my thoughts my wounds

Understand and accept that life will never be the same

I will never recover and get back that strength and energy

I once had

It hurts to know that life will never be the same again

I have consumed and lost everything!!

Constantly on the run from everything and everyone.

An eternal struggle to suppress shut down get rid of everything.

I do not want to remember I do not want to see!

I do not want to experience everything over and over again.

A whole life on the run! Always on the run from myself.

Thoughts that never end It's gone too far!

There is nowhere to run. nowhere to hide Just fear panic anxiety.

I have consumed and lost everything.