I really never knew why !!

Never really knew why

I never felt a sense of belonging

I felt trapped inside myself

Misplaced misunderstood

Tried to customize copy others' behavior patterns

The way they thought, how they reacted

I studied every detail, every pattern in their strange behavior

I gave up my own identity to become a copy of everyone else

And I really never knew why !! I needed to be someone else to be accepted 

It's just me myself and i!!

My anxiety has a friend

His name is Panic

They live, thrive inside my mind

They are always on the hunt

Searching for the next trigger

New ways to expose me to their evil ways

I have no protection, no way out

It's just me myself and i !!