I tried!!
To be something I am not
To change my path, my whole identity
Just to please others to be the perfect one
But I was never good enough
They were never satisfied
They used me, abused me
Saw right through me, chewed me up and spit me out
They sucked me dry and threw me out
It's just me!!
This is how it has always been
I can see no difference between pleasure and pain
Love and hate and everything in between.
So how am I supposed to feel
I don't even know the difference between anxiety, stress
It's all the same to me!
This is Who I've Always Been!
I don't even know if I'm awake or dreaming!
Is this my reality, my life or just a bad dream?
Am I depressed Am I suicidal?
This is me this is my life my reality
This is how it's always been,
I was born with depression and I will die with depression
It's a lifelong struggle but I'm still here fighting!
Who is that staring at me Blood red eyes a soulless smile so familiar!! So twisted and tormented I see the fear, the scars, the smell of dec...
