The riot is me

Something in me has to stop

I have ants in my pants and a riot in my head

I can't be stil, l and get no rest

My heart is racing and my body is shaking

I keep spinning, I'm overheated and overthinking

Body and mind out of control! eror something is wrong

I try to lie down but my head keeps spinning

My body aches and I'm still shaking

There is no stopping and I can't help it

This is how it's always been!

I still remember

First memory

Lying on the floor in the fetal position feels like dying

Unbearable torment and pain I am screaming and crying

My body is burning everything is hurting

A million razor blades cutting through my bare skin

The pain is devastating my heart is breaking

A blood disease that dropped me to the floor

I prayed for my life and hoped to die

I was just a baby but I still remember

All the pain, the suffering and the total agony

And Sometimes I can even feel all that inside me