Everything has its beginning
I can't really put my finger on when it all started
I have been afraid most of my life
I've never really had anyone on my side
No real friends just acquaintances
I was too afraid to let anyone get too close
So I created a self-destructive pattern the easy way out
I left everything and everyone behind as I always do
I became my own worst enemy my fear consumed me
So worthless so useless so god damn wasted
It's so easy to avoid the things you really need
To hide away and disappear!!
I'm lost in my own feelings I'm still terrified still afraid of being abandoned
I can't escape from my own fate
