I lost myself inside my mind!!

I'm trying to find the real me !!

I have been everything and nothing at all

I lost myself decades ago !! I lost my soul

I became something someone! A prisoner in my own subconscious

I sacrificed my own feelings my tears I gave up because of fear

I lost myself inside my mind!!

It never ends !!

There is no beginning, no end!

A vicious circle and a raging merry go round

I'm caught in a spiral !! a never ending story

A black hole that devours everything in its path.

So deep so scary. So real.

So many years have passed me by

I still do not understand why?  It all happened to me 

Why my nightmares became my reality 

I try to open my eyes and see that the ghost are not real

But there always there staring at me It never ends !!