It scares me
That I have no control over my own life
That someone who does not even know me
Will judge me without even knowing who I am
I'm just a blank sheet without a face without a voice
I'm no more than an empty form thrown in the trash
It scares me that I am nothing more than an empty leaf
Where someone else has control over my life
The feeling that society is playing Russian roulette with my life
That someone somewhere decides if I live or die
Sometimes I just want to disappear
Leave everything behind me, make everything just end
But I am stuck in a system that is destroying me
This is slowly taking my life away from me
It breaks me devours all I have
There's nothing left of me but an empty shell
I am mentally and physically exhausted
Can no longer even cope with normal everyday chores
Just the thought of getting to the store drains me
My life is falling apart !! The constant stress anxiety
A head that never stops it drains takes all my energy
I'm burning myself out just by being
I just want to shut down and disappear
Fucked by society
Trying to process understand
Why no one understands or listens
Why they talk over one's head
Why do they judge in advance?
I'm just a piece of paper you can throw away
Am I not worth a life, Am I so useless
That you can just turn your back and throw me away
Am I just rubbish in your eyes so useless
That it doesn't matter if I live or die
Who is that staring at me Blood red eyes a soulless smile so familiar!! So twisted and tormented I see the fear, the scars, the smell of dec...
