My mind is killing me!!

Hello, welcome in!!

What can I help you with.

Please help me! Turn it off, drain it, empty it.

Lobotomy me tear out it make it go away end this hell.

Stop this madness my mind is killing me

God help me make it stop I can't stand it anymore

Please doctor load your gun put it against my head

And pull the fucking trigger!

I'll never recover from this hell!!

So many things too many !!

Can't even see or think about all the shit.

The pile grows day by day. it just gets worse

All these fucking meetings. Do this fix that. Control everything.

How difficult can it be what an idiotic question.

If I had the answer, I would fix and control everything.

If I had the strength and energy even the ability to grasp everything i would.

I think no one understands or can even imagine how empty my battery is.

There is no fuel left. So empty and overloaded so broken and worn.

That not even the reserve tank gets filled. But no one sees or understands.

Is no longer just the thought that collapsed. But also the whole system

Nothing works. A body that is starting to crash more and more. 

So broken and physically abused. 4 years of chronic exhaustion 

How do you even fill an empty tank that never gets a chance to recover? 

I'm so empty, drained I'm broken I'll never recover from this hell

I see no solution to this mental hell!

A single track a single resort

I see no solution to this hell

This life is not worth living no human deserves this

I have no life the stress of constant anxiety has taken over

I'm trapped in an eternal panic attack that never lets go

My mind is my private little hell where everything is repeated

I do not live here and now I am stuck in the past

Where the nightmares are my reality

I see no solution to this mental hell

I just wish everything would disappear