Right now I want to walk out the door!
Leave everything and disappear but there is nowhere to escape
I can not escape from myself there is no safe place
It does not matter how fast I run it does not matter how much I try
I can still never hide or run away from my own thoughts
I can never overcome my feelings and my fears
There is no protection, no defense, in the end they always win!
Preconceived notions judged in advance
It does not matter what he says or does
A Sense of hopelessness abandonment and fear
To live day in and day out in a place without security
His eternal anxiety and stress that no one takes seriously
He should not have to suffer and be indirectly punished for his autism
Preconceived notions, lack of knowledge and understanding
A hopeless situation that only makes things worse
It has been over 6 months without improvement or change
And still he just feels worse and worse
Why I'm terrified
Why am I afraid to aggravate something that can not be worse than it is
Why am I afraid that the truth will hit me back?
That they will turn everything around and put the blame on me
It is not easy when you do not have the ability to communicate
When you are so stressed out that nothing works
To sit in a room where you know that everyone thinks that everything is my fault
The pressure of even being there becomes unbearable
Anxiety fear takes over: They do not see me they only see what they want to see
They do not understand that all this is due to my so-called disability
The things that have been said about me are both offensive and degrading
If I were all that they claim I am, I would be imprisoned for life
I'm not afraid of the world I have never locked or harmed my own child
I have never broken in my parenting, I have not locked in and isolated him from the outside world
I'm no monster no maniac I've done everything and more
I have seen his progress seen when everything turns around
So many times. But only to fall and collapse again
It is true but sad that no one took it seriously
Just because I was the only one who saw the great progress
You have never listened!! because of and your threats that created all the problems
Time and time again, I had to start over Find new entrances to reach him,
Get him to open up and let someone in again because of the mistakes of others
I have fought day in and day out year after year where no one has understood or realized
I am the one who has constantly done everything Except everything day claim I did
It is extremely hurtful to be constantly humiliated because you are who you are
Who is that staring at me Blood red eyes a soulless smile so familiar!! So twisted and tormented I see the fear, the scars, the smell of dec...
