I rather feel nothing at all !!

I'd rather be alone !!

Than somewhere near you

I prefer the silence, the calm without you

I rather feel nothing at all !! Than to feel everything you make me feel

I'd rather be free from demons within! To Be for myself and no one else

To breathe and live and finally be free !!

Then to be trapped in your hell and drown in your lies!!

There is no heaven no angels!!

Call it what you will

Nothing you say nothing you do can change that

You can Judge me throw me to the wolves sacrifice me.

You can still never save me !! You can not delete or erase.

All the memories that constantly haunt me

You can't turn it off or shut it down. or make it disappear

You can't change or delete all the wounds you created

You can't expect me to forgive or forget!!

There is no heaven no angels. No savior who can save me.

Not even god can judge me for leaving you behind!! You crucified me now i'm sacrificing you to survive

I just wish I could have cried!!

I wish I could cry !!

Open up and let the rain cleanse my soul

Wash away all my pain and suffering

Everything I avoided everything I escaped from

I never cried, never showed emotion

I never opened up I stored everything inside

It took my life to keep it all inside

All these wasted years !! All unhealed wounds

I just wish I could have cried opened up and let it all out!!