This is a legacy no one deserves!!

All I got was the only thing I learned !!

Where violence solves everything! That love and hate are one and the same

That sex and violence go hand in hand. 

That emotions and empathy are something that does not exist 

Where security and trust is to be silent, bow and pray

That the only way to survive was to emotionally shut down

To live in hell and never know where or how the monster will strike again

This is what I learned was normal I never understood that there was anything else

Than physical and mental abuse !! This is a legacy no one deserves

I just wish someone had dared to take me away from the living hell I had to grow up in

Living with emotional scars from the past!!

I sleep less and less !!

I try to get through the day without collapsing

I kick and abuse my inner self. To not show or react.

But inside I break !! I see all the abuse hear all the hurtful words over and over again

All memories all emotions the sexual exploitation the physical and mental abuse

The constant fear of never feeling safe or secure

To be raped daily and physically and mentally abused by flashbacks

Which is just as cruel and damaging as the day everything happened

Living with emotional scars from the past wound that never heals

Is the worst nightmare of all !!