I'm stuck in the place where it all began!!

To constantly live on the inside. 

Caught and isolated so anxious so scared confused and abandoned, 

No one hears me no one sees me no one understands me. 

I am and remain trapped and isolated on the inside of myself. 

I'm nothing I do not exist! I was never allowed to live, feel secure, joy, longing or hope. 

I shut down locked everything in on the inside. 

Taught myself to avoid, dodge and escape from everything. 

A life on the run !! Escaping from myself. 

All to avoid feeling re-experiencing the inner pain all the anxiety and fear. 

I'm still that little screaming child that refuses to go out! i'm still locked up inside

I'm stuck in the place where it all began.

To say sorry will never be good enough for me !!

Saying sorry is not enough !!

Words mean nothing action does 

To blame others !! Transfer the responsibility to others 

To close your eyes and not see that your sins are your own 

It is not OK!! it will never be okay !! 

To say I did not know better I never understood I do not even remember 

Blaming those who did it to you is just sick !! 

You are a copy !! You're just like them !! Not better not worse 

To me, you are all the same, you are all completely insane 

And to say sorry will never be good enough for me !!