You have no idea. It never gets better it never gets simpler!!

Avoid the first blow! No victory. Equally lost equally confused. Still do not understand what is happening. Can not in my wildest thoughts see what is waiting around the corner. I do not understand. I hear everyone's words, everything they say. Empty words without meaning so cold and hurtful. They cut me, they hurt me, I try to explain, I try to make everyone understand. That none of this is true, none of it is true. What you ask of me. Is not something I can do! Ask me not to lie Ask me not to even try to explain something I do not understand or can not. So lost and confused in a society that does not understand or accept differences. I stand on my knees. A miracle that I even have the strength to fight on. Every day is a battle against the clock time is running out. How do I make them understand. Get them to listen. To see that this path will only aggravate an already bad situation. Do not know if I should laugh or cry. What is requested of me, I will teach him to understand !!. Is just all I can not or do not understand myself! So why the hell are you not locking me up! I'm not social I'm not a herd of animals I do not sit in a cage. I do not work your standards I do not think like you. I can not adapt, I can not lock in who I am to function in what everyone sees as normal. you can not try to be something you are not to fit in it only does more harm than good. We are humans, not animals that can be locked up. Practice reprogramming. Change or change to perform your tricks. Forced to situations and environments, Places premises, jobs. People too many things that are normal for you. We are human individuals we have feelings. See us hear us learn to understand. Do not force us to become something we can never become. Where is humanity, where is the right to be different. Those damn words. It gets easier and better the more you practice:rs Go to hell you have no idea. It never gets better it never gets simpler. It just gets more manageable. There are so many factors that affect sleep How much. The more the woe everything gets. So do not say those fucking words Because you will never understand.What it really is like to be or have Autism

I have never will never accept this!!

I'm just getting more confused

Lack of information constantly minimized

Lack of communication and understanding

How can it be so difficult to understand a simple sentence

I was extremely clear that I will never sign

That I will never be okay with him being moved

I have never will never accept this

So how the hell can you say I gave you my consent?

How can you say that my son gave you an okay?

When he literally threatened to take his life

Thanks to you, he has broken down abandoned and suicidal

And you still think it's good for him

To be in a place where he does not feel safe

Where is humanity going?

To constantly fight against social services to get stuck in a system!!

Feels like walking around in a constant fog.

So sick and tired of being constantly diminished

Just waiting for the big bang for what's to come.

It is no longer possible to stop it is too late

Everything has gone too far, the damage is far too great

So many years a struggle against both clock and time.

The feeling of hopelessness tears me to pieces.

No one sees him no one understands. He can not sleep he gets no rest.

With each passing day, his personality disappears more and more

All his joy all his dreams are gone there is only one empty shell left

He has lost faith given up! It hurts to see how a human being breaks down

And not being able to do anything to change his situation

To constantly fight against social services to get stuck in a system

Those who do not take his mental health seriously do not even hear his cries for help

It is no wonder that more and more children are feeling mentally ill

When no one sees them no one listens or understands.

Where they have to adapt to fit in and try to be something they are not

It is not okay for children to be bullied and exploited because they are different