No matter how much you try, it leads nowhere!!

Not even a lawyer can do anything!

You stand alone in a battle you cannot win

A child who breaks more and more

What more can you do to keep trying

Not giving up trying to be there

But it's not easy when you can not be there by his side

When you can not see him talk to him

To just sit here I can not even explain how helpless you feel

When you know that no matter how much you try, it leads nowhere

So where can you seek help to end this nightmare

Do not diminish what he feels Especially since he is suicidal!!

It is both offensive and insulting

Hearing someone say that it is not visible

I have heard it so many times that I can not stand the word

No you can not see into my brain or body

You do not see the strees or the inner anxiety

You can not see the chaos that is constantly going on

So open your eyes listen to what he says

Do not say that it is not visible or noticeable how bad he feels

Do not diminish what he feels and expresses over and over again

It is not okay to assume that he is exaggerating how physically ill he feels

Especially since he is suicidal

I should not have to apologize for being who I am!!

Why do I try why do I fight?

When Nobody hears or understands my words.

Everything goes wrong no matter how hard you try,

To make them see and understand Empty words without meaning

The same word is repeated over and over again. Yes I know yes I understand.

I understand what you are saying but I still do not understand

I do not think in the way I do not work that way

But at least I'm trying to understand you so why can not you do the same

I'm not an idiot, I'm not crazy. I do not live in a fantasy.

Everything I feel, everything I think, everything I see is real.

See me as I am understand me accept me as I am.

It is my world my reality. It's my feelings, my thoughts

So do not judge me just because you do not understand me

It's my thoughts, my feelings. It's me it's my reality my world.

Let me live, do not take the little that is left, do not crush my world. 

Do not tear up the world I once loved to live in.

Because we live in the same world, even though I see it in a different way

I should not have to apologize for being who I am!!