Blood is not thicker than water!!

 

You asked me to make a choice!

And to do what's best for me

And the truth is !! Is that the best thing for me is to erase you from my life

I do not need to hear understand! It is you who needed to listen and understand

But it's always the same!! You hear what you want to hear !

You claim that you do not remember And that it has never happened !!

You say I'm lying !! That I was never sexually exploited physically and mentally abused

I do not need you !! I never needed you I will never need you!

I do not need the nightmares the constant anxiety, the flashbacks that you constantly trigger

So thanks for absolutely nothing I'm done I'm over it

You are all just a fading memory! Family means nothing nothing at all!!

 I tried to extend a hand to get your help to help my son! But you turn it against me as you always do and you blame me for everything

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For what is written is their truth!!

It's funny to be judged in advance

That no one sees who you are !! You never get a chance

You are just a paper where the words are distorted and give a false image

I have been thrown in and out of healthcare all my life misunderstood and misdiagnosed

It's scary when looking for answers !! why am I not like another why do I not fit in

Why do I not understand others why everyone thinks in such a strange way.

Why do I not work among people messy environments

And all you heard was year after year you are depressed.

Take a pill and and everything will be fine. You need to get out !! be among people.

Everything I tried to say I can not! I need to rest !! Shut out the world to be left alone to recover and process

But no one listened or understood that I had autism

It has been a long hard journey through life where one has never felt accepted or understood.

When I turned 48, I finally got the answer, but then it was too late

For everything I am now is what is written in my medical records

So I'm just a piece of paper! My words mean nothing !! For what is written is their truth

And I'm still struggling to get all the pieces together to make my life work again!