I sleep less and less !!
I try to get through the day without collapsing
I kick and abuse my inner self. To not show or react.
But inside I break !! I see all the abuse hear all the hurtful words over and over again
All memories all emotions the sexual exploitation the physical and mental abuse
The constant fear of never feeling safe or secure
To be raped daily and physically and mentally abused by flashbacks
Which is just as cruel and damaging as the day everything happened
Living with emotional scars from the past wound that never heals
Is the worst nightmare of all !!
