Bang bang in my head!
It never ends It never stops!
When it's over, the next one strikes!
Even harder than the last one
I never manage to land on my feet
It strikes without warning
From all directions at once.
It never ends I'm stuck in a panic attack
I see no solution no way out!
Lost and confused Trapped in a mania
stuck in my brain going insane!
My head is wrecked I think I'm going crazy
Bang bang in my head i'm losing my mind once again!
It's been a day!
Do not remember why
It became a part of me
It kind of took over
Became a way to handle
A daily battle against me
My overthinking mind!
It has been forever!
Do not know how to break
Or change the addiction
On this roller coaster ride
I'm stuck in patterns
A path to self-destruction
I know i have to change!
Break my habits restart
Just a little thing something!
Whatever it takes to get started
So easy to say and so hard to do
One step at a time a cliché
How to even get ahead
if you always insist on repeating
I take one step forward and two steps back.
It's tough to get through life like that
But somewhere you have to start
One day at a time!
If I never breathe another breath
never see another day this would be a blessing
If I could close my eyes forever! Forgive and forget.
Instead of being forced to relive life over and over again
And everything I have survived over the years
I know you were mine before you died
And you kept me alive, cleansed my wounds
I've been to hell and back so many times.
All the suffering of the world became mine
I have the devil's mark forever and I drank of the demon holy wine !!
You will always be the devil on my shoulder
And I know that there is no god in heaven!
No angels no savior welcome to hell!
Who is that staring at me Blood red eyes a soulless smile so familiar!! So twisted and tormented I see the fear, the scars, the smell of dec...
