I'm still haunted by the demons of my past!!

Frozen pictures !!

The nightmares that never end

Voices shadows something lurking in the dark !!

Someone is here !! Heavy breathing whispers in the dark

One eye open slow breathing heart beating

Something is suffocating me !! It drags me down into the depths

I drown in my own tears suffocated by my own screams

I can not move I am paralyzed,

I'm still sleeping with a knife under my pillow 

I'm still haunted by the demons of my past!!

I never needed you and i never will so please just  Stay the hell away from me!!

I'm not a slave to your evil ways!!

No!! I will not talk

I will never fall back in line

I will not repeat the same fucking mistake again!

I'm not like you I will never be like you !!

I am injured, broken and right now I am suffering

But my suffering is my own !! It's my life my choice

There is only one way !! It's my way or high way

I will not waste precious time on someone like you

I'm not a slave to your evil ways

So don't waste your fucking time on me !! I'm already gone

Stay away walk away!! Please don't come back another day!!

A step I physically or mentally can't take!!

I'm trying but I can't do it

So many thoughts Too many emotions.

Too many memories Too many obstacles !!

Walls too high to get past So invincible so scary

All the years of fear. anxiety and panic.

Just seeing them hearing their voices triggers everything.

A surge of emotion explodes. All at once

So frustrated so lost so scared. I want to but don't dare

So impossible so scary !! A step I physically or mentally can't take!!!